[Another long pause, but this time the typing indicator appears and disappears the whole time, like she's slowly composing and deleting]
Maki: Thank you. Really. That means a lot. Maki: It's not that I feel like I don't belong on the unit, though. I was actually just talking to Intensity the other day, about being upset. He asked me why I'd moved to ☆ZRAEL in the first place, but it's not like I've forgotten that... or that any of the reasons have changed. I fit in, on ☆ZRAEL, way more than Taisho. I feel like we're on the same page, and I can work with everyone, and that the unit tries to hold together, and generally values each other's opinions. I'm comfortable here. And I probably never believed in the unconditional love and support stuff in the first place, so in a way it was relieving to have a little conflict, and not feel like I was just waiting for the other shoe to drop and it to all fall apart. Maki: But I guess I still really wanted it. Want it. So when it didn't seem to matter that I didn't actually get it, after everything everyone said, it hurt. And like I told you after my live, I've been working hard to support everyone, as much as I can. So every time anyone didn't even notice that, or someone got support or forgiveness when I got ignored or criticized... that hurt, too. Maki: It's not just you. You just happened to hit on it.
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Maki: Thank you. Really. That means a lot.
Maki: It's not that I feel like I don't belong on the unit, though. I was actually just talking to Intensity the other day, about being upset. He asked me why I'd moved to ☆ZRAEL in the first place, but it's not like I've forgotten that... or that any of the reasons have changed. I fit in, on ☆ZRAEL, way more than Taisho. I feel like we're on the same page, and I can work with everyone, and that the unit tries to hold together, and generally values each other's opinions. I'm comfortable here. And I probably never believed in the unconditional love and support stuff in the first place, so in a way it was relieving to have a little conflict, and not feel like I was just waiting for the other shoe to drop and it to all fall apart.
Maki: But I guess I still really wanted it. Want it. So when it didn't seem to matter that I didn't actually get it, after everything everyone said, it hurt. And like I told you after my live, I've been working hard to support everyone, as much as I can. So every time anyone didn't even notice that, or someone got support or forgiveness when I got ignored or criticized... that hurt, too.
Maki: It's not just you. You just happened to hit on it.