[Her hands fist, her nails digging into her palm.]
"Didn't get along" is an understatement. I had barely been at the dorm for a couple of weeks. I was at future is now when the graying started... I was wearing Bad End clothes most of the time, too. That's probably way it affected me so much. After I started losing color and memories, I went back to Taisho to try to get along and do unit things, since people said that was supposed to help... and ended up in awful arguments with half of them, and ended up just storming out more upset than when I started.
...Meanwhile, my boyfriends... A was turning gray too, but he plays along with AlcheME's image all the time anyway, so he didn't see what my problem was. And of course Joker ran off without even talking to me to try to summon a demon and ended up making a deal to get possessed by Asmodeus. So he showed back up and just told me to just stick with my image and he'd do what needed to be done and everything would be okay, and that kind of thing. And then he ran the trial, obviously. Part of the reason Taisho didn't die in the trial is that I caused "conflict" by... destroying him emotionally. And then, for the first time ever, my unitmates were actually considerate and grateful to me.
[ he's not really one to offer sympathies, so he doesn't, but he listens to the whole thing without interrupting and takes a moment to digest it afterwards. ]
As for me... Pretty sure I'd never gotten into argument during a game, before the one with the balloons. Well, Doodles and I got into a yelling match about who got to be the attacker during the monster game, but that's about it. And that's not 'cause I was holding anything back—when I boil over, I boil over. There just wasn't anything to argue about.
[ a small huff ]
So we're coming at it from two totally different perspectives, is what it comes down to. Can't be helped that our expectations are different.
Things started getting weird after the protection game. Probably 'cause that's the first time we learned how different our priorities had become. ... Doesn't help that that's around when Little☆Red started disappearing, too. I dunno if the others would think about it that way, but she was pretty good at holding things together, in her own way.
I mean, your Live and all that was a mess of its own, I won't deny that. But the reason everyone got so weird about it has a lot to do with stuff that was already going on.
Anyway, sorry for making it about me. It's rough... coming at it from a different perspective from everyone else, I guess. And I don't really know what to do to fix things, either.
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... Sorry, sorry. I'm just bringing the mood down at this point, huh? That's not like me. Whatever that means anymore, it's not like me.
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"Didn't get along" is an understatement. I had barely been at the dorm for a couple of weeks. I was at future is now when the graying started... I was wearing Bad End clothes most of the time, too. That's probably way it affected me so much. After I started losing color and memories, I went back to Taisho to try to get along and do unit things, since people said that was supposed to help... and ended up in awful arguments with half of them, and ended up just storming out more upset than when I started.
...Meanwhile, my boyfriends... A was turning gray too, but he plays along with AlcheME's image all the time anyway, so he didn't see what my problem was. And of course Joker ran off without even talking to me to try to summon a demon and ended up making a deal to get possessed by Asmodeus. So he showed back up and just told me to just stick with my image and he'd do what needed to be done and everything would be okay, and that kind of thing. And then he ran the trial, obviously. Part of the reason Taisho didn't die in the trial is that I caused "conflict" by... destroying him emotionally. And then, for the first time ever, my unitmates were actually considerate and grateful to me.
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It was probably... the worst time I've ever had.
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... So things are better for you now, I take it.
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Even the bad games here are better for me than almost every game was on Taisho.
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[ a small huff ]
So we're coming at it from two totally different perspectives, is what it comes down to. Can't be helped that our expectations are different.
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[she's silent for a few moments before deciding to just ask directly]
Do you think I'm part of the reason things have gotten worse?
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What? No.
Things started getting weird after the protection game. Probably 'cause that's the first time we learned how different our priorities had become. ... Doesn't help that that's around when Little☆Red started disappearing, too. I dunno if the others would think about it that way, but she was pretty good at holding things together, in her own way.
I mean, your Live and all that was a mess of its own, I won't deny that. But the reason everyone got so weird about it has a lot to do with stuff that was already going on.
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Think that's just bad timing, though...
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Not like Ashley has any room to talk when she picks a fight every other game.
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[sighs]
Anyway, sorry for making it about me. It's rough... coming at it from a different perspective from everyone else, I guess. And I don't really know what to do to fix things, either.
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Don't worry about it. Not like I'm doing a whole lot to put your mind at ease over here, I know.
[ hmm, he feels like maybe he shouldn't let the previous part of the conversation go just yet, so he adds— ]
Anyway, I'm glad you're here. For what that's worth.
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[a faint smile]
Thank you. That's worth a lot.