It was just an example. I don't see myself as a tool. I just want to make myself into what I want.
And between you and Joker and A and some of my unitmates, it's plenty of people. But the point isn't just having people around. It's having... something you're confident in.
If you make yourself into what you want, why wouldn’t you be confident that you’re not missing pieces? If you have to have other people in the process, shouldn’t there be more concern that you’re becoming what they want?
I don’t understand this fascination that you have with a common origin story. Or even similar circumstances.
Nine-Nine and I have never been seen together and yet we get along the best. While Yugi and I can’t agree on jack shit.
It’s your future that should have commonality. Not your past.
You're confident in what you were doing in your world, right? Your goals for what you were building, and how you wanted to change things. That's part of who you are. And when we talked about Blue Eyes, you told me that no matter what happened, you'd find each other, through space and time. Those are things you can rely on. That you don't have any doubt about.
I don't have anything like that.
...That's what I mean when I say things like "I don't know what I'd do without you." I'd survive, I'm sure, and I'd figure something out, but...
And you cling to your identity as an assassin. How is that any different?
I don't get why you keep doing this to yourself. You obviously want some semblance of control or stability in your life. But you keep waiting for some magic external outside factor to make everything click into place.
That's not going to happen.
If you want to do more than survive, then just do it. You don't need anyone or anything for that.
—Nn, I'm not going to argue about this again. I am doing everything I can. I just said it would be nice to know the truth of what happened. Even if it would be nice, things may be beyond that point now, anyway.
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And between you and Joker and A and some of my unitmates, it's plenty of people. But the point isn't just having people around. It's having... something you're confident in.
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If you make yourself into what you want, why wouldn’t you be confident that you’re not missing pieces? If you have to have other people in the process, shouldn’t there be more concern that you’re becoming what they want?
I don’t understand this fascination that you have with a common origin story. Or even similar circumstances.
Nine-Nine and I have never been seen together and yet we get along the best. While Yugi and I can’t agree on jack shit.
It’s your future that should have commonality. Not your past.
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You're confident in what you were doing in your world, right? Your goals for what you were building, and how you wanted to change things. That's part of who you are. And when we talked about Blue Eyes, you told me that no matter what happened, you'd find each other, through space and time. Those are things you can rely on. That you don't have any doubt about.
I don't have anything like that.
...That's what I mean when I say things like "I don't know what I'd do without you." I'd survive, I'm sure, and I'd figure something out, but...
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I don't get why you keep doing this to yourself. You obviously want some semblance of control or stability in your life. But you keep waiting for some magic external outside factor to make everything click into place.
That's not going to happen.
If you want to do more than survive, then just do it. You don't need anyone or anything for that.
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[shakes her head]
—Nn, I'm not going to argue about this again. I am doing everything I can. I just said it would be nice to know the truth of what happened. Even if it would be nice, things may be beyond that point now, anyway.