[ he's in this and will be hesitating a couple of moments before she arrives, but... he ultimately decides to use energy recharge on himself, though he's had some reservations, because of what happened with furfur. ah well. ]
[ he keeps his head down at the start of the run, since he's got to organize his thoughts, which are a mess. he sighs, already feeling overwhelmed for a number of reasons. ] Hey, ah, Maki... [ better start somewhere. ] did you know about me and... X...
[Thar almost makes her miss a step, because whatever she was expecting him to talk about, it wasn't that. She recovers, but her voice is slightly tight.]
[ he sure is glad he's staring at the ground. e- except that, no, he does spare her a glance, because he's kind of surprised that x hadn't said anything. ] I... should have said something. [ he might not have talked to maki like that in the beginning, but things had started to change and he could have opened his mouth. it's not like his relationship with x hadn't evolved over time. ] I'm... sorry.
Ah, but not remembering things a- and each other might have made that difficult, but [ he tries to pick up the pace again and change topics to keep from making maki feel too bad. ] B had given me an idea some time ago to, uhm, to do something... since X is gone now...
[ he feels a bit sheepish all of a sudden. ] ah, Yeah, like... to remember him. He, uhm, he told me about... [ it's here that he trips up. ] what was wrong with him. [ so he's just going to stop. ] And how he had to do those requests to keep from... f- from... anyway, a memorial.
He kept coming and going and a bunch of bad stuff kept happening. I think that might have been around the time that those games just happening one after the other after the other. A- And you know him. He just kept, like, worrying about other people. But even if that's not the case he's gone and I miss him and I wish he were here. [ he smushes his hands into his face and takes a few staggering steps backward. ]
And so in between all of the terrible shit we have to go through I have been trying to put this art project together. I just... I want to do something...
Even if he did, why wouldn't Lilith just send him back...?
[It's a rhetorical question, but it occurs to Maki that she's actually capable of finding out the answer. She puts that aside for later, pausing to look at Yugi.]
...Not that it's a terrible idea of something to focus on, regardless. An art project, huh.
If it was a special case then, then what wouldn't make it a special case now?
[ but he shrugs uselessly. ]
I took up art as a hobby to use as a distraction some time ago. Not graffiti, which is what this would be, but stained glass. [ this is an enormous can of worms that should probably not be gotten into right now. ] But making things is just what I like to... do, I guess? And because I can't really make a giant stained glass thing I thought tagging a building seemed like something... good, especially when I could get a bunch of other people on board to help. Friends and stuff. I think he might have liked that part too, or... [ digs his nails into his face, because he's getting frustrated with himself. ] Anyway. [ sucks in a breath to relax. ] I'm sorry. Lately I'm just... [ shakes his head and lets his hands finally fall to the wayside. ]
I don't think things are going to slow down here anytime soon, so I want to try to do this, like, ASAP. I know things here might not have been... great between you two, but you're my friend, Maki, and I'd really like you here. And they maybe weren't as bad back... home? I know it was back at that murder school, so maybe that's not really saying much, but you two... he'd probably want you there too.
They weren't bad in murder school. We were close, there. He was the only person who reached out to me, when C revealed me as an assassin and I tried to stay away from everyone. He... told me I was just scared. We hung out for "training" at night. I... he was really important to me, then.
But even so. I'm pretty sure I killed him, somehow. I didn't mean to, but...
[...]
Anyway, we're both different people here. Especially me. And he made it pretty clear that he couldn't be friends with me.
[ he looks a bit surprised to hear that. murder school looked all sorts of complicated, so he's not going to blame her for what may or may not have happened. he doesn't have the details either. not to mention she already thinks it might have been an accident. ] But?
I think a lot of us are different people here. I know I am. [ he's not sure how he feels about that, tbh. ] It's this place... and the fact that we start out as blank slates. B- But, ah, I remember my first couple of days here, and we didn't get off on the right foot, but... [ he offers her a smile, reaching for her hand. ] I'm glad we're friends, and I hope we continue to be friends. You mean a lot to me, Maki.
[She takes his hand, and then just looks down at it for a moment.]
I wouldn't say we got off on the wrong foot. It's not like I ever disliked you. I just... don't know how to be friendly. Or how to deal with it when people are nice.
[And then she's quiet for another few seconds before she answers his other question.]
I remember being certain I killed him. Accidentally, while trying to kill C. And it was a killing game, right? The rules were that either everyone voted me the culprit and I was executed, or they got it wrong, and everyone but me was executed.
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[ he's in this and will be hesitating a couple of moments before she arrives, but... he ultimately decides to use energy recharge on himself, though he's had some reservations, because of what happened with furfur. ah well. ]
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Hey.
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Hey! I’m glad you were up. I was kind of worried I might be waking you.
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[she matches pace with him.]
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...Yeah. King mentioned, once.
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It's fine. It's not like X mentioned it, either. We weren't... actually close, here.
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[ he starts to slow down. ]
Ah, but not remembering things a- and each other might have made that difficult, but [ he tries to pick up the pace again and change topics to keep from making maki feel too bad. ] B had given me an idea some time ago to, uhm, to do something... since X is gone now...
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Do something...?
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Then she figures it out]
You think he died from it?
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He kept coming and going and a bunch of bad stuff kept happening. I think that might have been around the time that those games just happening one after the other after the other. A- And you know him. He just kept, like, worrying about other people. But even if that's not the case he's gone and I miss him and I wish he were here. [ he smushes his hands into his face and takes a few staggering steps backward. ]
And so in between all of the terrible shit we have to go through I have been trying to put this art project together. I just... I want to do something...
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[It's a rhetorical question, but it occurs to Maki that she's actually capable of finding out the answer. She puts that aside for later, pausing to look at Yugi.]
...Not that it's a terrible idea of something to focus on, regardless. An art project, huh.
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[ but he shrugs uselessly. ]
I took up art as a hobby to use as a distraction some time ago. Not graffiti, which is what this would be, but stained glass. [ this is an enormous can of worms that should probably not be gotten into right now. ] But making things is just what I like to... do, I guess? And because I can't really make a giant stained glass thing I thought tagging a building seemed like something... good, especially when I could get a bunch of other people on board to help. Friends and stuff. I think he might have liked that part too, or... [ digs his nails into his face, because he's getting frustrated with himself. ] Anyway. [ sucks in a breath to relax. ] I'm sorry. Lately I'm just... [ shakes his head and lets his hands finally fall to the wayside. ]
I don't think things are going to slow down here anytime soon, so I want to try to do this, like, ASAP. I know things here might not have been... great between you two, but you're my friend, Maki, and I'd really like you here. And they maybe weren't as bad back... home? I know it was back at that murder school, so maybe that's not really saying much, but you two... he'd probably want you there too.
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[She's silent long enough to be awkward.]
They weren't bad in murder school. We were close, there. He was the only person who reached out to me, when C revealed me as an assassin and I tried to stay away from everyone. He... told me I was just scared. We hung out for "training" at night. I... he was really important to me, then.
But even so. I'm pretty sure I killed him, somehow. I didn't mean to, but...
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Anyway, we're both different people here. Especially me. And he made it pretty clear that he couldn't be friends with me.
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I think a lot of us are different people here. I know I am. [ he's not sure how he feels about that, tbh. ] It's this place... and the fact that we start out as blank slates. B- But, ah, I remember my first couple of days here, and we didn't get off on the right foot, but... [ he offers her a smile, reaching for her hand. ] I'm glad we're friends, and I hope we continue to be friends. You mean a lot to me, Maki.
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[She takes his hand, and then just looks down at it for a moment.]
I wouldn't say we got off on the wrong foot. It's not like I ever disliked you. I just... don't know how to be friendly. Or how to deal with it when people are nice.
[And then she's quiet for another few seconds before she answers his other question.]
I remember being certain I killed him. Accidentally, while trying to kill C. And it was a killing game, right? The rules were that either everyone voted me the culprit and I was executed, or they got it wrong, and everyone but me was executed.