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rollplayinghouse) wrote2019-12-31 04:46 pm
rollplayinghouse) wrote2019-12-31 04:46 pm
End-of-year question meme
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Their mistletoe kiss obviously exacerbated that a bit. But specifically it exacerbated it in the way that most of the time when she thinks about liking Griffin she's thinking about him being cute and fun and how easily he understands and supports her! And not about how much she wants to kiss him. But after cheek kisses she was definitely thinking about how much she wanted to kiss him. (A lot. She wanted to kiss him a lot.)
HOWEVER, as alluded to in that thread, she's also pretty determined for it not to matter how much she wants to kiss him, because after Betrayal kiss she is decisively not going to push for anything from him no matter what. She is now a person with full agency and emotional control, she can stand there and want to kiss him a lot and still not kiss him and instead make casual conversation. Watch her.
Ideally perhaps she would back off on her feelings and not think about kissing him at all, but Maki has always been of the opinion that you can control your actions but controlling your emotions is way harder, and in fact she has not made any headway on having less of a crush on him.
To be fair, even before Betrayal she was in a similar situation where she didn't plan on her crush going anywhere, and that didn't really lessen it. Back then she wasn't planning to ever tell him her feelings because he was clearly a romantic who was still figuring out what he even wanted and she wasn't going to invite him into her romantic disaster web. NOW HE'S KINDA IN HER ROMANTIC DISASTER WEB ANYWAY due to King/D.Va so that reason is... less relevant. Which she is occasionally faintly sad/jealous about. Only very faintly though, because most of her feelings on him being with other people are happiness he's found something that makes him happy and relief she didn't ruin relationships for him forever with her murderkiss.
But yes, overall Maki still likes him a whole lot. He is exactly her type of dumb showoff boy, with added bonus of same hat backstory, with added bonus of having similar romance/family perspectives. Add in the parts where he often he very quickly understands what she's getting at even when it's something she's had a lot of trouble explaining to people, and where he makes insecurities she's had for a long time seem really simple and easy to address, and she's just... she's hopeless. There's no escape.
REVERSE!!