... 'Course it is. All the people I woke up with are gone, after all. Nothing's the same as it was in the beginning. Some of the most pivotal events in our unit's history don't mean anything to the people on it, people who were our enemies are our friends, we've gone from barely holding on to 3 members to 8 strong, and no one else even thinks any of that's unusual—it's just the new "normal." That's the weirdest part.
... It's even more strange for me, probably. I woke up with Yasuragi and Shuten and Shu... Shuten's gone, Yasuragi ran a kissing game, and Shu came to visit yesterday to thank me for helping his unit, after we've barely talked to each other for months. Do you know when I met the new girl on Taisho, she asked if I wanted to trade for an outfit...? And Sekhmet started to explain contracts to me when she signed one to not do what she did again, like I wasn't totally aware of exactly what they did and the drawbacks of it. And I've dated Joker and killed part of him and broken up with him...
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...Overall, it's better for me, though. At least... now. The things I need now are different than I needed then, I think.
Well, think about it. Envision your ideal self. Qualities you pride yourself on. If you became a version of yourself that's nothing like that, would you be happy about it?
...A lot of things have changed since the trial. Not just you.
Even if things weren't like this before... If you hadn't changed at all, things could be bad in a different way. And there can be ways to improve things now without things having to go back to the way they were.
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Really, the only one left on ☆ZRAEL who would remember any of our old history is me.
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...Is it weird for you too? How much things have changed.
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[a huff]
...Overall, it's better for me, though. At least... now. The things I need now are different than I needed then, I think.
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At least that makes one of us.
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Is it that much worse?
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'Cause I let myself change. So it's only natural my circumstances changed, too.
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I don't think that's a fault. Unless you don't like the way you've changed.
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Can't say it's something I'm proud of.
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... I guess.
But I didn't think things would get this bad, either.
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Even if things weren't like this before... If you hadn't changed at all, things could be bad in a different way. And there can be ways to improve things now without things having to go back to the way they were.
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[ ... but he just gives a slight shake of his head. ]
Doesn't matter, anyway. It's too late to go back. Nothing to do but march forward, no matter how bleak that road looks.
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Bleak, huh...
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[ ... ]
... Sorry, sorry. I'm just bringing the mood down at this point, huh? That's not like me. Whatever that means anymore, it's not like me.
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