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And he won't ever admit it.

But he was happiest when he had Red to depend on.

...

I'm not Red.

I didn't say you were.

But fine. I'll spell it out for you---

In all his memories, he talked a big talk about being self-sufficient. But yet he was always in someone's company. And the only time he ever asked for help is if he would have died otherwise.

So if you're waiting for him to admit it, you're right. He won't. Move on.

But if you want ZRAEL to feel like a home -- because you don't really need everyone to like you. Just one will suffice. You could have a partner if you'd just lax those expectations of yours.

...I know. I've seen some of his memories too. And he's definitely... the one I'm closest with. And I don't need to hear him admit it explicitly.

But I don't know... if I can be there for him.

[Slightly exasperated:

No, wait. Actually exasperated:]

Why?

...Because...

[trails off and has to think for a moment before she actually has an answer for that]

Because I admit it. It might be hard for him... so see me with what he wants.

Why don't you let him decide that?

That would solve two of your problems, wouldn't it? And with minimal risk on your part.

...

[she sighs]

It's not like... I'm not trying.

But it is also unsatisfying?

...Not always.

But it's still frustrating sometimes. And it's not there yet.

Did you know that in the castle game was the first time that Angel and Duality really had a strong opinion on who they wanted to protect?

Sometimes things just take a lot of nurturing.

[...]

For the Ultimate Child Caregiver, I may actually be pretty bad at nurturing.

Good thing your goal is not to raise children then.

[Though who knows if that's true or not. Considering who she has to deal with on a regular basis (aka this guy)]