Question meme

[rollplayinghouse]

I wanted to do a question meme and apparently Maki has broken 10k comments somehow.

You know the drill.

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[rollplayinghouse]

Silk is probably one of Maki's most unambiguous friends in Imeeji. There are a lot of people who like her (apparently) or even people she likes, but as far as people she feels enough comfort/camaraderie with to seek out or talk through things with, who aren't romantic interests, that's basically like... Silk, Angel, and B? Maybe 99 too but only because he turned down the romantic interest.

Anyway. From the beginning Silk has felt very familiar/comfortable to Maki, obviously since they are pretty similar people! Being friends with her has always felt almost strangely easy/effortless, because they haven't really had to work to understand each other a lot, and she doesn't feel particularly nervous or self-conscious about opening up to her. Plus, I feel like I mentioned at some point, a lot of the problems Maki has with talking to people about romance/feelings things is that for a lot of people she feels like their advice for her ends up being "be better at feelings" which is obviously... hard for her. Silk will say she's not helpful, but having someone on the same level approach things with her is actually often much better.

Having their jealousy talk was good, because Maki has also been vaguely jealous of Silk from the beginning also - because Silk is on Bad End. How come Silk, who appears to be extremely similar to Maki, gets to be on Bad End, and Maki is stuck on Taisho?? For that reason she does feel like she understands Silk's "what if you come onto Bad End and take the one thing I have, my place on the team" perspective, though. So even though Silk said it was dumb, Maki kind of... respects it, and doesn't really want to make things awkward there? The whole reason Maki wants to move is that she wants to have a place on the team, so she can't really judge Silk for wanting to keep that. Which is a lot of the reason (other than Zrael being cute) that she's leaning for Zrael rather than Bad End right now.


REVERSE

[searingedgelord]

Maki is probably one of the people Silk is most comfortable with now, and definitely one of the few people she honestly considers a friend. She appreciates that Maki is willing to listen to her even when she is not sure how to express what she's feeling. She feels kind of bad about the jealousy stuff though because like, she KNOWS Maki is her friend and isn't trying to take anything from her, but also insecurities aren't reasonable.

She does feel better for having talked about it, though, and does realize that sharing a team with someone she thinks of as a friend would probably be okay. Though at the same time, it's nice to have someone off team she trusts, because the more dependent she becomes on Bad End the more likely she is to become stupid and territorial about the team.

She also didn't realize that Maki was also jealous of her so it's nice to know she's not the only one who has those kinds of insecurities. All in all I think she feels closer to her now than she did before, even if she feels bad that she may have discouraged her from joining Bad End.

Also it would never occur to her to feel like Maki should be better at feelings, because she kind of thinks Maki is already better at feelings than she is, so like. She's clearly doing ok, from Silk's perspective.

How does Maki feel about the kissing?

[rollplayinghouse]

Silk and Man Eater are the two people that Maki deliberately went for more kissing than strictly necessary with who are also not people she would currently say she's attracted to. With Silk in particular she's not sure how she feels about it! It was definitely... comfortable and nice, and it made her feel good, unlike kissing someone she actually has no feelings for. But at a certain level it hits the cognitive dissonance of "this feels good in a kind of sexy way" vs "I'm not sexually interested in this person I don't think??" and it stops being comfortable.

Reflecting on it, Maki definitely likes Silk and is comfortable with her and thinks she's objectively attractive. But they're too similar as people for her to actually be Maki's type (Maki doesn't really like herself very much), and so she doesn't really think of her that way. Instead she is just a bit like... okay if I were like Joker and was the sort of person who just had sex with people I was close to for comfort/fun, I'd probably be willing to have sex with Silk? It would probably be comfortable and fun? But she still can't picture herself doing anything like that without freaking out / shutting down / being too anxious and weird for it to be enjoyable. She's... she's working on it.

Reverse!!

[searingedgelord]

It's kind of the same for Silk, actually. She likes and respects Maki a lot and she also enjoyed kissing her. It was like. It was nice and enjoyable and kind of almost relaxing in a way. But also she is...not sure that is the kind of relationship she wants or needs from Maki right now. She enjoys her friendship with Maki and not is sure that kissing or sex would make it better than it already is. Which doesn't mean that couldn't change but as it stands she's mostly just kind of vaguely ??? about it. But still comfortable being Maki's friend.

She's also not sure it's the kind of relationship Maki would want or need from her. Because...Maki's love life is already really complicated, and Silk thinks she'd probably just complicate it more if they were involved like that, because Silk does not see herself as good at these things. And she's still kind of hung up on Oni.

In general the kissing game left Silk kind of frustrated and confused in a lot of ways so it's probably going to be a work in progress while she figures things out. She does also feel kind of bad that she enjoyed kissing 2/3 of Maki's boyfriends. She might actually tell her in their current thread, like. Kissing you was nice. Also kissing some of your boyfriends was nice, I'm sorry, I don't know what to do with that.